ADDICTION OF THE PAIN

I WAS SOMEWHERE WALKING DOWN THE LANE
OF MA OLD MEMORIES,WHEN I STEPPED ONTO SOMETHING,
THE TOMBSTONE OF THE GRAVE OF MY HAPPINESS,
WAS JUST LYING THERE ALONG THE CARCASS OF ALL THOSE EMOTIONS..
IS THIS WAT I CHOOSED TO BE?,
OR ITS WAT I HAD TO BE?
SICK OF INSANITY LAID UPON MY SOUL.
I KEPT WALKING,AND WALKING WITH AN ACHING HEART SHIVERING WITH PAIN.
TRIED ALL THOSE OLD ROADS WHERE I USED TO SEE HER.
SHINING FACE MATCHLESS BEAUTY..
LIKE A GODSENT ANGEL..
SHE SMILED AND MADE DARK CLOUDS FADE AWAY.
TO MAKE A WAY FOR THE SHINING SUN.
WAS SHE NOT MEANT TO BE MINE?
I NEVER CARED FOR THIS ANSWER.
JUST WENT ON FEELING FOR HER..
DINT WANNA HURT HER
DINT WANNA SCARE HER
DINT WANNA MAKE HER FEEL UNEASY
JUST STAYED HIDDEN TO WATCH HER GO ALONG..
WE WERE LIVING IN PARALLEL WORLDS
NEVER DESTINED TO MEET..
I ENJOYED EVERYTHING TILL IT WAS A DREAM..
BUT NOW THE REALITY HURTS MY HEART
PIERCING IT LIKE A DAGGER..
AND GOES ON AND ON TILL IT BECOMES TO STAGGER..
MY GATES ARE CLOSED NO ONE CAN GET IN.
SHE IS THE ONE WHO DIED N LEFT ME ALONE.
BUT I CANT CEASE LOVING HER..
ALTHOUGH ITS PAINFUL.BUT ITS MY LIFE NOW.
MORE OF AN ADDICTION..
I DON'T SEEK PLEASURE IN THIS FILTHY WORLD,
DRENCHED IN LUST ALL OVER
ALL WITHOUT LOVE..
THIS IS AN EMPTY LONELY GRAVE YARD..
ALL WITHOUT HER..
I DON'T SEEK PLEASURE NOW,
I BELIEVE IN PAIN,,
THIS IS MY ADDICTION,,
EVERY BREATH I TAKE IS PIERCING ME ALONG ALL THE WAY.
IN THIS SARCASTIC WORLD WITHOUT HER..
SHE WENT ALONG
AND MY HAPPINESS WAS CRUCIFIED.....
NO MATTER HOW MUCH I DRINK THE ALE.
NO MATTER HOW MUCH WINE I POUR DOWN MY THROAT.
ITS ALL MY ADDICTION OF THE PAIN